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finally, i have the time to change my blog while i have been saying it for long long time.

yesterday, went tanning with choolinglong. bright sunny day. it was so humid, that i don't really can stand the heat. hence, left after an hour plus. went to vivo. have our lunch and a little strolled.

i dont know what exactly happen and yes, i'm lost. i don really know what the hell am i doing and i guess i'm making the situation even worst. after 'LONG" confessed to me abt her thing. it strike me back, and i don even know why. somehow, or alittle i experience sort of similarity between us. and i picked up the courage to ask someone. yes, things are different now. i cant find the old pass someone which i used to depend on. i know it was me who make everything mess up. i really don't know. but i rmb the very first time i get to know u, u were different from what u are now and i'm not talking abt things which happen in between. yes, i have my other half, so why make thing so complicated ? tho i have my other half, somehow things are not going anywhere good. not going any further for what exactly happen between us. i told myself nvm. cause, i still have my loves! i know the promise u used to make no longer exist, i sure u forgotten. cause people do change. and i told myself not to let all this thing let me down. i will be strong, i said. i wont drop a tear anymore. no more.

I'll give up everything ,That we had, that we'd do
And you'll never hear me sing. All these songs about you
So just take this time and think
Just take this time and think
Memories, me and you. Think about the things that we had
The good times before they went bad

lately, i found out several thing i should not know. i'm tired to take care of every little single thing...
Same old thing happens,
You get me going,
And you just leave me there to take care of myself
If you think it's possible then anything is possible
But I think you're impossible
I hope you prove me wrong
sometime ppl just take thing for granted. however i hope i'm not to late to know that who is stil worth being close with. limyinling, upon seeing wat u wrote to me. i'm really touch to tear. u wrote....

Lauren,

I also neglected you, when we were separated during our secondary school days. You had your own friends, i had my own friends. Both of us seldom stay in contact. Remember back in 2002? We saw each other at Raffles Place for the Energy gathering? Damn shock to see you there. We stayed in contact for a period, after that, both of us went missing again. Whenever, i talk bus pass by your place, i will take a look at your house window. :x see open or close. see you at home anot. wondering what you're doing. haha. but, you already move place without me knowing! -_ -" After a few days, both of us stay in contact again. I feel like the primary school days are back again. I miss those days, my dear. Those days when we skipped classes together, hide in the choir/band room during recess or even after school, teasing each other about who like you, you like who. hahaha. remember the day after we got our PSLE results? I cried for so damn long because of my dumb results after that, we went to Yi Xun's house cause we dont want to go home.

And and and, I'm super touched that you left a testimonial for me the other day, saying that you can't wait to celebrate our friendship anniversary. After your exams, we go club tgt ok? =P

You'll always be in my precious list. (:

when i saw this, i was surprised. i din expected anything like this. hmm maybe i also did neglected ya after we were separated. but during wsss i don feel good. i do miss your. and i tho of transferring. but when i transferred during the 2yr, thing just don go how i wished it shld be. u noe tat. however frenz do come and go. it seem tat when time flies it make our distance grow apart. and when i saw ya in zss i don noe how to react. i guess sometime i din even go and said hi to u when u were with ya frenz. cause i just feel weird tat why when i moved i don even know shld i tell u anot at tat point of time. and when we started to contact back. i'm afraid of getting close to u. i don know where or how to start. it hurt. and yes every time when i go out i still will take a glance at ur hse block.and it just bring me back our memories. till now we still can talk abt our pri sch life. cause it is something tat we had all gone thru and make us tgt. the joys, the tears, loves. and yes i still miss those time when we also pon classes and go to canteen brought the lemon chicken. u know. i always brought alot. haa and there we go and meet the stupid 6a9 guys haa. u and him and i am.... stil rmb one day when we attending chinese lesson and they came our class? throwing letter in and out. haa and mr lee caught us. but lay peng said tat was her brother wanna to take pocket money. haa and mr lee believed. the worst part was we sneaked out of class again and he shouted at us. haa we stil lie to him tat cause laypeng's brother need hlp we all got to hlp and quickly we ran out of class dating. and memory just brought our bond back again. i'm so grateful that i have u , my precious. tho we seldom meet but our bond is still strong. u are always there to hear me out. and care when i'm trouble. i'm really really very glad. but!!!! one thing i wan to get anrgy is u din reply me the message i said we wil be celebrating our 10anniver friendship day!! haa and u stil dare to write out =___= . explain to me!!! haa

not forgetting my wsss n7. it was just a sad case of how we got separated. and how it was formed. i always wanted the grp to stay but yes we do know why and what happened. we also have been thru the high and low. misunderstanding and all. and i still rmb when i used to be sooo close with jie and dy, i used to call dy, laopo and emily the "qin di". till now i stil cant forget the happy time we have been. we can be real crazy over everything. sometime shared our same thoughts and feeling. i really missed those time. but after n level. things seem to change. i donno wat exactly happen and drill our distance apart. maybe is the rumours. and honestly, i feel weird upon tat rumours. and also after the sitting arrange have change. we seldom talk to each other. during recess time, ur used to wait for us. but suddenly, everything change.i tho it was because of tat rumours. when i saw ur it's weird. tat time i really feel bad. hence, i left ur. i never said out nor talk abt it. i just kept it to myself. cause tat time i really donno who should i turn to. and this is also the reason why i seldom come sch during o level period. i feel it's better to stay at home, alone. when ever i'm at home i still we missed thosed precious day tgt with n7. when i started getting back close to ur i feel that thing just don stay the same. at first, i still feel uneasy. but as time go by, i'm gald that everything is fine now. accept one another, compromise one another and most importantly, regard one another as precious. i really love love all my precious and i always wanted to tell. no matter wat, 10 year down the road i still want our friendship to stay strong and firm=)

hee Finally!!!!! today last paper, psychology!!!! over! all over!! *claps. celebrate. toss. whatever. headed down to little India with ning and rajes. lavender, to acc rajes collected her passport. raffles place for donuts. headed to chinatown to take bus 190. home sweet home. din go sentosa. was too lazy to go. how great! 3week of vacation here i come!!! while ning ning queueing for donut.. cam whoring...
gotta meet nn in few hour time. RUSH HOUR 3, WAIT FOR ME! HERE I COME!!!

exam week!!!

have been went back to sch for the past few day for revision before mic and fon paper. memorising and memorising. it's killing me. I'm bad at memorize text. just finished mic paper on fri and fon paper, yesterday. not really confident. but at least, i stil left with 2 more paper to mug on and i will be free. HOLIDAY!!!! horray! =)

Thursday, stay at school till late night. In the mean, lost of concentration and....

"buay song" look..stress!!!quick nap=)

cam whoring help to release some stress ^^

Saturday, after Fon paper went out with Kelly and friend (kai xin,psb mate). town and chinatown.

shopping sprees.

kaixin and me and kelly

kaixin and me

me and kelly=)

yummy yummy =x

wanted to catch a movie but met nn for dinner instead. had our dinner at caradigo and strolled ard town and state viewing and backed home. *tired

went to school during afternoon to hang in mic worksheet. met up rajes at cck int and met ning and mede at S.I.M foodcourt. have our lunch there and copying of notes. ning and de left first after completing the worksheet. as for rajes and me... we did a little study in school for an hour plus and headed home.

headed to haw par villa yesterday with NN.
on the way to our destination...
haa. ya i know. it's cam whoring...

rejoices!!!

finally! got to go haw par villa...

awaiting.......

reached our destination!!!! "welcome to haw par villa"!!!!

can't wait to see whats inside... have been aged since i went in.

arrow behind pointing the way to ten court of hell!!!!

hmm.. twist to big stomach Buddhist???

chip chip goaty...

=p

cheese =x rabbit ^^

DRAGON!!!!

argh!!!! his mouth is bigger then mine!!

intimating???

hell of jail !!!! yes he shld go in.

blessing bell =p
opss... mistress =x


kiss, kissing, kissed!

hold on!!!!

ya i know, i'm a good good gal =)
he's a bad bad boy. =p

headed to vivo for dinner and spent our night there.

slacked and enjoyed the night breeze.

now, i shall leave the picture to talk on my behalf....

someone is yawning!!! holding hand in hand, it's home sweet home time =___=

GHOST FESTIVAL IS HERE!!!
nO late nighT, cOmE homE early!!(advise and reminded by elderly)
sPooky creature is watching over u~~~~

ok whatever. haiz. it's soo sooo soo lame.

finally, psb exam ovEr. have be mug for that paper for the past 2 week and still.... i doubt i could make it thru. np majoR paper. this coming 2 week =.=" yES! i failed my aap practical test! gotta retest this coming WED! shity 0.0 i donno if i still can pull it thru anymore. nt really know what to post abt.

well... I'll leave the pictures to talk on my behalf.

Anson, coming over during national day =)

dinneR with nn.
no firework for me =.=""

took picture instead.

long and eternal journey.....
there he go. fall asleep again 0.0
looking at the time. it's home sweet home time.