*:.nOthInG lasT fOrEveR:.*: February 2007

i'm just dead!!!!

dead! dead! dead!

don't ask me why! i am just i am.

i just hate the way it is. stupidness!

don't ask me what happen.

i wont said a single word more from now on.

yes! i WONT! have enough.

just be it, just be it.

i will just pretend everything is fine from now on.

Yes it will be.

seriously, i doubt!

yes! finally finally finally! i regain my privacy, my room , my com, my sleep n n n my peace!!! today, they left at 6 plus in the morning. i got woke up by their voices but who cares?? haa they are going to leave tot. wanted to send them off but i'm just too lazy to move my body^^ so continued to sleep instead. haiz.. still haven get started with my project, my revision my my my everything related to school work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! exam is just around the corner and i din even tk the initiative to pick up those book to study. i know i missed quite a number of days for business statistics lesson n i know that i got tons of doubt abt it. but!!!!!!!!! shit me i still don want to start trying it n clarify those doubt with my lecturer or friends. maybe i'm just too lazy to. really din learn my lesson from the start. yes! yes! yes! hate my'self. tons of excuses for me to cover thru. study break is like just for me to be fooling around, doing nothing, going out rather then staying at home n study.i know it so well but so what? still i don't choose what is right for me :-[ friends around me have seen their future their goals, their hope and they are all improving gradually. as for me? i'm just getting more and more hopeless and useless days by days. i hate anti-promises, i hate thing which had been said n plan but nt yet done n fulfil!!!!!!!!!! watever it is....damm

phew!! finally! today morning i could have some peace^^
the reason is.............. THEY ARE OUT!!!
out with my parents to ZOO!!
probably will be back hm ard noon time and jie they all will be coming over to bai nian.
haa... forget about the china gal to give ya ang bao. shit her, bring her child only know how to come collect ang bao, follow us go bai nian, tk tk tk ang bao n my ang bao $$$ all decrease le la!!! argh!!! as expected, this year cny is just too boring for me. it make no different for me between how i spend my normal daily day and cny. no urge to gamble this year with my cousin. we all just looked gloom. din talk much either. yesterday went to sentosa after bai nian. wanted to catch the performances at music fountain initially. damnn!! the india and china ppl, the place was so crowded. the queues was like.. sooo.. the long n all seat had been taken out. hence after dinner headed back yewtee. slack ard and called my niece to come down. play cards until one and home sweet home while i entered my room it was just a mess. chill~~ T_T

argh!! my chocolate dream had been destroyed by the "two" of them!!!
wake up at 8 plus this morning cause of their LOUD voices. the worst thing is tat she keep sticking stickers on my hand.=.=""yst slp at 11 plus cause they off the light!!! went back sch yst fer cny celebration. ltr head down to town to hunt fer our bag. haa cant find any there so went down to bugis instead. i hate to go hm now!!!! with them in the same rm with me!!! argh!!!! i cant said the child cant scold cant do anything to her!!! onli can control myself from throwing anger to her. yst msn chat "she" kept pressing the key board button!!! i cant have a peaceful chat with my dude la!!! tis morning also the same. lucky now my brother playing with her. argh!!! don wan don wan to eat reunion dinner with them la!!! now back to my rm climb up my bed jump here n there!!! what shld i do NOW!!!! argh!!!

Take some time to smile
when u r down..
to rest,
when u r tired.
To let go,
if u need to.
In this life.
Just take sometime,
for urself...

text from emily^^
thank my dear frenz=)
it's meaningful msg tot.
yes, don worry i will smile
even when i'm down=)

bad day for me??
pls i need a break.

argh!!!!!!!!! fcuk! i detest it!!! why it have to be my hse n my room!!! n n n why is it has to be 10 days!!!! yst dad oversea frenz arrived at spore. n i did not return hm tot. cause....i DETEST IT!! don't know why. juz don like to stay in a room with someone whom i don't know. i want my privacy!!! n n n mom stil told me to give my key to them during this 10days!!! no way mann! i'm fcking pissed right now!! wth!!! my room is just a mess now!! i hate it!!!! i don like!!! now i'm kinda of being restricted. i can't tuck in late anymore!!!
i cant do wat i like in my room anymore!!! argh!!
maybe i shld nt return hm this 10days so i wont be able to see the thing i hate n whine so much abt it.
nvm forget it!!! yst watched, once in the summer. omg! i like the song "yesterday, when i was young" it's damn damn nice song to me ^^ b4 tt, went to j8 omg it's crowded did not get the chance to see dy's bf la. haa so we head to town instead=p yupp did enjoyed myself. thanks nn^^

Is THIS UR HANDPHONE NUMUBER??

1) key-in the first 3 digits of your handphone number
(exclude the '9')into the calculator
2) multiply by 80
3) add 1
4) multiply by 250
5) plus last four digits of phone number
6) plus last four digits of phone number again
7) minus 250
8) divide by 2 at last
Is it your handphone number????
AMAZING EEEE

reach hm quite early today.
hahah cause head hm immediately after sch.
ltr gonna meet jvern out.
yes finally! ltr gonna swmming^^
i'm getting sick and tired of ""???
everyday is such a boring ones.
tranquil!!! perhaps tranquility is all i need for nw

ya. this week quite boring tho.
not much thing to do or said.
went to changi airport after sch.
how i wish i could go oversea nw!!!
yes i mean it. NOW!!!
i wan to gO!!!!
i don want to stay in spore!!!
i want go BANGKOK, Taiwan, hongkong,Australia etc...
can someone bring me go? LOL
omg next week! next week!
YES iT'S CNY le^^
haa cant wait for that day to reach
my "ang bao"!!!
hai but also dont rrly few like celebrating this yr.
aiyo funni la me^^
i only want to tk $$$
but don want to go "bai nian"
argh!!! pls!!! time!!! cant u just stop and don't ever flies so fast!!!
it's feb now and this coming fri gotta tk o level result. after cny gotta exam soon!!!
hate it! hate it! hate it!

I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

Well if you wanted honesty,
That's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go,
It's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks,
The photographs your boyfriend took.
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.

What will it take to show you
that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again,
you sing the wordsbut don't know what it means.
( I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook.
I held you close as we both shook. for the last time,
Take a good hard look!

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.
Forget about the dirty looks,
The photographs your boyfriend took,
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and thrown out

I'm okay.
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really didn't listen to me,
because to tell you the truth
I mean this.
I'm okay!
(Trust me)
I'm okay.
Well, I'm not okay.
I'm not oh fuckin' kay.

[tis song rock!]<<---it reflect how i feel^^
hmm.. nt all ba, but partly of it=))

opss. todae suppose to meet jie n dy fer gym session, BUT!!!!
i over slept!!!! when jie called me i was still sleeping so.... haa i nv go le=(
how sad!!! tis was the second time i cant go le!!! argh!!! nvm ba=(
yst when out with "NN" after sch. we moved from place to place.
First, we went to tiong bahru market place fer lunch. yes! finally, i got to try out the
lor mee with sharp fish nuggets. MUST TRY!! after tat we want to "RItz carlton" hotel to explore. hohoho yeah we din went in, it's like so scary la as the security guard is soo sooo sooo hostile but all thank to him we still manage to walk in haa. i want to try out their cuisines.
haaa buffet buffet! after tat we headed to other hotel, the pan pacific and the parkview square which is located near bugis junction. head over to GEylang just to eat my "beancurd" n yu tiao" haa yea i got round out k. then we went to chinatown. the lighting there is splendour. but u know during this coming cny festive it is always pack of ppl. somehow, we got to shove our way thru. went to mac fer dinner and head back to yt. slack at the canal there, prattle away fer abt 4 plus and -->>hm sweet hm.

pic taken at RItz carlton=)