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it is always nice to stay sweet and loving. but what you see is a fantasy of romance and balance. deceive of the wonderful picture it paints. still, i rather see the illusion of what it is.

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NSL practical test tml. how great, i didn't even know what to revise on and how to assess the patient for this term. exactly one more week to my final exam. 7 days to mug for e-commerce paper(7 chapter to read on) ;at the same time and day, nSL written test. Joy to hell=) 11 days to business strategy paper. *killer. and follow by my final sem exam for HS ,so on and fro.( said hello to hell.) sometime i just wanted to give up everything that is ard me. I'm so tired of everything and anything. I'm just too tired of making thing right and awaiting miracle would come. deceiving myself , things are getting better. i have learnt to hold on at the same time learnt to let go.

its time to forget about the past

to wash away what happened last

hide behind an empty face

don't ask too much the same'cause this is just a game

You know nothing come easy, you gotta try real real hard, I tried hard...but I guess I gotta try harder. I'm havin a hard time stayin on track. my mind beracin, and I don't even know what I'm chasin' ,yet I been in and out of relationships, I'm startin to see thats it's me where the complications at, but I'm layin back prayin that,you can't have piece of mind of me, I thought I was right but really I'm wrong, in the end I was to blind to see, I was in the fast lane chasin' my dream, they just got me going craaazy lately, lately, lately I beed so faded tryin to erase it but I cant cuz the drama just goes greater and I been in so many collisions from puttin shit up till later. It's like I'm taking 5 steps forward and 10 steps back, tryin to get ahead of the game, but I can't seem to get it on track, and I keep running away from the ones that say they love me the most. how could I create the distance when it's suppose to be close and uh, I just don't know but I be out here fighting. it's like a curse that I can't shake this part. would you help me? and stop this pain I keep inflicting on hustlin ,trickin and scammin scrambling and losing sight of what I'm suppose to be handlin, it's hard to manage cuz everyday's a challenge and I'm slippin can't lose my balance I'm tryin not to panic. see things won't change I'm stuck in the game as soon as I get out it keeps pullin me back I don't understand how.

It is so easy to see

Dysfunction between you and me

We must free up these tired souls

Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know

I love you but I'm letting go

It may not last but I don't know

Just don't know

If you don't know

Then you can't care

And you show up

But you're not there

But I'm waiting

And you want to

Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday

With every worthless word we get more far away

The distance between us makes it so hard to stay

But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe

It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories

Can heal us temporarily

The misbehaving only makes

The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart

I’ll never let it fall apart

But strangely I wish secretly

It would fall down while I'm asleep

Tough we have not hit the ground

It doesn't mean we're not still falling,

Oh I want so bad to pick you up

But you're still too reluctant to accept my help

What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame

But until then the fact remains

Everyday

With every worthless word we get more far away

The distance between us makes you so hard to stay

Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe

It hurts but it may be the only way

hallo people its me again ( nn), well wat we did today ????

Hmm, haa was too tired i slpt till one plus when LL msg me to wake and do my project..
so i did wake up and went to do my research throught the net.. and time pass fast then 4 plus le then quick prepare and go down to np to meet her.. wah i alighted at the bus stop suddenly someone grab hold of my hand haa then find out its her ( i was frighten sia) and frm there
we went down to causeway point and had our dinner

aFTer that went to neoprint photo to take some pic nt throd the machine but throd my hp-_0 "
haa took some pic and i was there disturbing her while she taking her pic ( she was quite annoy by me) jkjk haa , and then head back home.. HEE dear :D thanks for the fun time ...

had been absent 3 days from school this week(Tue to Thur). argh! *lazy. stay at home and revised for my final module exam *claps (hopefully i can pass through it.)yesterday went back school, got to know my next clinical attachment le. straight away after my sem 1 exam =.="" starting from 27 Aug to 14 Sept!!!! it's at tan tock seng hospital tot. but at least I'm having 4 weeks of holiday ltr!!!! i want to go oversea!!!!!!!! back to yesterday. went back school during break time. and all i did was meet up with my dearie and cliques. it seems like this few days we always have so much fun tgt. chatting n cam whoring=p dearie did a veri moronic faces. *laughs (or pic capture incautiously).

we all loves this pic!!!! yes! so do i=)








this pic look funny!!! esp. ning!!!

dede and me ^^


dearie did this for me =) whaahahaa


so...give her a **MUAcks


in return hlp her to style her hair. (as i promise her) lol n n n...


here go her hair ^^
after school headed home. dxo night. home sweet home =)

well, things happened this way.
so ya, things change and people change.
but i never expect people to change that fast.
i can't take it but i didn't give up at all cause i want it to continue.

i belong to someone who doesn't belong to me.

Hmm well i am taking over LL ( lauren lee)... and help her write this blog

Wat we did today?? she wake up quite early today and went to study for her test while i am still slacking on my bed haa lazy of me.. Then later wake up and rush to her house to bring her to my house as she want to print her notes before that went to ate lunch wif her..

After that we watch 200 pound... rented vcd haa and that send her home .. Dear i hope u can see this, lets work hard togather and bulid a better future

[ feels emo ]
[ listening to loneliness ]

I'm sitting here
Thinkin' 'bout
How I'm gonna do without
You around
In my life
And how am I, I gon' get by
Ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
If you want the truth
Well girl, I'm not alright
Feel out of place
And out of time
I think I'm gonna lose my mind
So tell me how you feel (I'm lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (I think of you)
Baby still (you only)
Do you dream of me at night (like I dream you all the time)
So lone
Oh, let me tell you how it feels (it's like everyday I die)
Wish I was dreamin but it's real (when I open up my eyes)
Oh, let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again
I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss, the arguments
That we would have
From time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here
It's clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live
I wanna die
If I can't have you in my life
So tell me how you feel (oh)
Are you for real (for real)
Do you still think of me (I think of you)
Baby still (you only)
Do you dream of me at night (it's like I dream you all the time)
So lone

-sign off-

have so much fun in sch this week. Wed, RAJES's birthday. we took alot alot and i mean really alot of pic tgt. will upload the pic soon. argh!!! my hair is like shit now. chen yingjie wanna help me style my hair?? lol common test result is out. i failed two module. =( anatomy and micro infection control =.= took retest for anatomy. argh!! i really don't know how to study n memorize la. First time in np, i i i did a little naughty thing =)) i cheated on the retest. haa. my dearie ning write the ans on the tissue paper and throw it to me =.=" *scary* but i think i'm still calm at that moment. haiz haiz haiz i think it will be a busy day for me after next week. gonna mug for my upcoming exam at psb and end of year at np. all fall on the Aug. i don't want to remodule!!! I'm dead for sure. as for now i'm drolling to go pubbing. Lindy chong, i want to go!!! hurhur gonna come up with a perfect reason to tell daddy. *pray* going meet nn in few hour time. yes! yes! yes!


haa really look like totally short hair huh??

like the hair taken

yes, it's well blended haa.

but in real, it look like shit la. stupid auntie no skill cut de =.=

finally! 2 week of clinical attachment is over=)oh yup i din cut my hair le haaa... back to school again =) today lesson hmm ok la. met up with my cliques. din chat alot today^^ big huggies=x our nsl lecture has change. he's going oversea tml and we even plan to celebrate a farewell party for him. we brought him flower, card and even cake but end up he din turned up to school='(( it was like......wth!!! b4 his lesson went down to king Albert park with my dearie to get the flower... and cam whoring!!!

*twins =p dearie ning and me


propose =x lubzz


=)=)=)=)
din really get the chance to tk photo with her. n yes!! we did tk alot today^^rush back to np but end up "our gift went to the drain"=.= argh!!! watever. haa my lubz...


Reunion!!

i love big big hug!!!!

first, i would like to said;

happy 6 months' anniversary!!!!!

one week of cck polyclinic attachment is over. one week of working experience at there was like??? i dont know how can i put it in words. but yes, now i believe in a real world the world is black. i dont know. but it just seem to be. nurses can just bad mouth patient. conflict among employees. yes. all human like to gossip. it cant be help right? but one thing i know is that ones have to be great in cover up. some ppl may thought that nurses who talk to u are very friendly and caring. yes they can be approachable. but when u leave, they just can said ur bad to her colleague. i know not all the nurses are like tat but to the majority. tel me look to the bright side, they actually can convince the patient by using their sweet tongue. they said it's communication skill,you need to be good at it and know how to handle different types of patient and provide them with good services. when they patient leaves, hopefully they can receive good satisfaction. yea, it's similar concept as business line. besides knowing the work field of the nursing line i also get know precious knowledge abt our health. the types of wound and how is it important to be heal. and what is pap smear? why all woman above the age of 18 and are sexually active need to go for the check up. and we got to see it for real =)) as in real patient coming for pap smear. not forgetting the diabetes patient. why is it important for them to do the eyes check up and foot screening. woooooh!!! tat still alot of it la. nor wonder some said nursing is a good career. haaa i begin to like this line le =)) and yst woOOOOH!! got to see ndp near marine there. tot it's a new places but this year performance is not as great as the past few year. quite disappointed tot. but nvm is ok=))